who am i…...
Today is the first day of the rest of my life….I am seeing things so clearly now.
I am going to attach what I wrote today…..+ my about me page…..if you don’t feel like you’ve known me forever, then maybe I am not the right one for this adventure. I am a photographer…so I am going to attach not just what I look like, but more so what I see……and how I see it. I hope a pdf is good for you. I am on a MAC and like to use pages. If you still want a word document just let me know. Just to let you know…i ordered the workbook last night, but just your blog / video and whenigrowupcoach.com in less than a day got me here. Thank you so much already.
-sam
who am i…
June 15, 2010
being a child….
i can feel it like it was yesterday, but reality is that it was many many years ago.
where has the time gone.i can remember so clearly the history of my youth. watching my daughter, i get flashbacks of me at her age. i love it.
it’s funny how remember most of the good and block out the bad.
when i was young….i was always waiting…
waiting to ride a 2 wheeler….waiting for my tooth to fall out….waititng to get my liscense…ok so i didn’t wait…i got it in the next state @ 16…..then fake id. i was good at not having to wait…always found the loop hole to expidite the process.
in reality why was i in such a rush…..where was i going…..at 15 i was given the oppurtunity to run away.
Being that I was super bored in high school….I needed more,so one that was 7000 miles away was perfect. Little did I know that this would be one of those life changing moments…that year changed my path. and I went happily never looking back. I truly believe certain people and moments alter your life.
This was a big one….bigger than my parents getting divorced, switching schools……
Not only did it teach me that americans are a spoiled nation who live way beyond their means, and truly don’t know what it means to live life. They are too busy trying to keep up with the Jones’s.
who knows who I would of bee , where I would be if I would of returned to the states to finish high school.
would i still be a single mom, almost 38 years old ? a photographer ? world traveler?
when i was freshman i took a commercial arts class, mind you pre computers… i received a D+….
my mom (WHO IS A VERY CREATIVE PERSON) told me i didn’t have one creative bone in my body.
(oh wait is there a bone in your tonque). Now 20 years later i still don’t like to color, draw, or paint. I do however like to take photos, and design on the computer….and finally after so many years of wanted to learn how to sew + 10 years of collecting vintage fabrics…..i am doing it.
So yes i would say I am CREATIVE…..
I believe that living like a vagabond and traveling around the world really opened my true me.
It helped me become the person i needed to be.
Japan and everything in it is probably the biggest influence on how i see what i see.
The world is such a big place….why would i want to go to the moon when i haven’t seen all there is to see on earth.
I have friends that i grew up with in Jersey….that have never left the Tri- state area.
there is nothing to be afraid of….embrace it….it helped me understand myself better.
i feel out of tune, like a guitar.
THE GREAT DEBATE….on destiny.
is our destiny already written for us in life?
if so then by changing your path…do you alter your destiny?
lately i have been thinking alot about my life…
i am ziah’s mom. i am sam i am photography…..but what happened to me?
where did i go?
I got lost somewhere between potty training and my 3rd year of Sam I Am photography.
I feel trapped and alone.
Don’t get me wrong, I love both of those roles in my life and wouldn’t change them for the anything in the world.
I just want, no actually need to reconnect with me.
i am a fighter…it’s is part of who i am / my dna… like a 2nd skin.
The school of life taught me well.
Our life is what we make of it.
probably the last 10 years I haven’t been able to sit down and read. I don’t know why.
I can scan over a magazine….browse other peoples blogs…..
in reality my life is my movie. no need for reality tv.
until yesterday i couldn’t pinpoint what it was….i need to go and explore and reconnect with the me.
the me i was when i was traveling, and i want my daughter to expierence this too.
true adventures start with desire, an inclination to enter the unknown.
I have decided to take ziah and just go for a year. When i was traveling i met so many families who did this. I promised myself i would….and here i am at the beginning
Preparation Stage Begins….
I know this is the right thing and the right time. the talmud says you start to see things not as they are, but as you are. I haven’t felt something so right in a very long time. I am excited……
ME / MYSELF / + / I
quotes to live by
be thankful.
dream big.
and never give up.
- nick vujicic
discover your passion and go for it.
love what you’re doing.
be happy.
have a greater purpose.
and you will never look back.
-unknown
One of my favorites
“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living,
It’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope.
Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life’s realities”
–Dr.Seuss
Well, let me start off by saying when you wrote above “if you don’t feel like you’ve known me forever…” I remeber the first time I walked through your door… it was like walking into an old best friend’s house. I had never met you before, but everything felt familiar and relaxed. It’s just the engery you give off, which is such an amazing trait.
I am so happy for you and Ziah to start your adventure… I just ask you of one favor… please blog along the way so we can see bits and pieces and stay connected to our Sam I Am
I just came across your website and blog last night. I am inspired by your adventures and especially your photography / editing. Just beautiful! I am a mom of two small children and am beginning the adventure of my own photography business. I live in Wellington, FL and I am excited to follow you along online to see what you are doing next! Thank you so much for sharing…
Julie
always nice to hear that what you are doing inspires another person.
just remember always let yourself shine through in your creative process…..
It is so funny how people come into our lives…I am so happy you are in my life now! You are so much fun, so real, so wacky, so loyal and so talented!
Sam, I came across your blog years ago, but somehow I stopped visiting. Thanks to Tami I came back to check out your blog once again. Finding this entry was just refreshing, honest and just 100% inspiring! Good Luck in your travels!
amazaing work, keep up the great website.